LIFE
Expectations?
Expectations they make our life exciting for a moment and miserable for the rest of our life unless you decide to let go of it.
I remember during school days, I enjoyed studying but then, later on, I started hearing people say things like you have to study and work hard, become a really big person (I Still don’t know what they meant by that). People started having this unrealistic expectation from me and somehow I gave a fuck about that. My parents never really had any expectations from me, they are always open-minded and supported me in whatever things that I wished to do as long as I scored well if not great.
But these fucking assholes always came and told me how I had to be great and become a superstar in other people’s eyes. This thing made my life miserable, every time I did something stupid or scored less or made bad decisions, I hated myself, it made me feel wretched. I was never happy, I was always hopeless and hated my self for a while.
It’s like our consciousness is completely occupied with the regrets from our past life and expectations from the future. There’s no present, we are living in the illusion of time.
But how to live without expectations? lower your expectations little by little and slowly get rid of it. Then start exploring, to explore you need to trust yourself. I never thought I would be interested in writing blogs If you’d have told me years ago that I would love and enjoy writing I would’ve laughed the fuck out.
One way to truly trust and love yourself is to simply become comfortable with what you lack.
Unknowingly I started exploring different things, I was never into computers, I took it as a subject for my 11th grade and I love it. I got into it with zero expectations, in fact, I thought I would definitely suck at it but let me just get through it, I’ll somehow manage to pass.
Plus, exploring sounds more fun than expecting right?
“Waking up to who you are requires letting go of who you imagine yourself to be.” ~Alan Watts
We imagine our own importance. We invent our purpose — we are nothing.
